The More I Learn, The More I Realize I Know Nothing...
Absolutely Nothing
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The more I learn, the more I feel as though I know absolutely nothing. I kid you not, I feel like I have the brain of a 4 year old. It's not so much lack of intelligence as it is lack of knowledge and experience. I don't memorize well, which doesn't help me out a bit here. There's so much in this world to see. I've done nothing with my life so far, or so it feels like. If I could know 1/100 of everything there is to know, I would be the smartest person in the world, dare I say. I don't know how many bones are in my body, I don't know how many different chords there are in music. I don't know what Genisis 6:36 says. I have no idea exactly what Socrates thought about. I don't even know all the capitals of the states. I have no idea all the movies Sandra Bullock plays in. I'm not sure how far Venus and Pluto are apart. Goodness sakes, I don't even understand why I feel the way I feel most of the time. I want to learn, I want to know, I want to be a walking, talking dictionary... but it's useless. I want to be more than a blonde who has fun; there must be more than that. No matter how much I try none of it sticks, and even if it did I would still know nothing compared to all there is to know. I know my worth is not dependent on my wits or knowledge or even intelligence for that matter, but still I can't stop thinking about how my life would be different if only I knew... if only I knew so much more than I do know. How much can the brain handle, how much could I take if I could take it all? I just want to be bright, to be intelligent, to be knowledgeable. Maybe the first step in becoming these things is realizing that I'm not any of them.
), how is my counselors marriage going? Does he have the kind of marriage I want? Or maybe it's at work, of course my goal is to excel to the top, but if I look at the CEO or Presidents position, and I don't like the "fruit" in his life--why strive for that position?