Your relationship...

Or Lack Thereof

February 19, 2004--- You wish he'd ask you out, out to the movies or something, but he doens't. He's supposed to be yours, so how come he never calls? You've trusted him before. He's lied to you, what makes you trust him now? Now everything is just so nuetrel. Sometimes he means well, though he never goes out of his way to show it. Is this the epitome of the 16 year old boy or is there someone out there who will make you feel like a million bucks?

Why do you like him, is it just his charm? It's almost like you have to prod and push and make all the decisions in this relationship. Ohhh, so you've been "going out" 6 months. Big woop-dee-do! What is it with high-schoolers anyway? I mean, it's a bit better than those stupid junior-highers, who think everything's a game.

But really, what is your relationship worth? One day, when it spirals down the drain you'll look back. Will you be happy with the decisions you made? Are you truly living with no regrets like you say you are? Maybe all the hot college boys are just too intimidated by your gorgeousness. I don't know what it is; maybe boys never become men like they're supposed to. What is it all about, this dating game?

You think about him way too much, you know you do. He never even emails you for goodness sakes! Why does he still have you? Why do you always initiate the conversations. It's a wonder he asked you what you wanted to do for Valentine's Day! Of course, you always have to decide; you're the only one who can plan, right? I sure hope it gets better in college. I sure hope there are men, out there, somewhere. Men who want to take the lead, surprise you with roses and chocolates. I hope there are even guys out there who drive out to your house just to surprise you, to pick you up and take you ice skating.

Good greif, what is dating for? Only hopes gone sour because of "lack thereofs". You're passive, passive as they come, you could say. He doesn't deserve you. You deserve better... it's frusterating as hell! He's great, if only he'd try harder. Boys are so stupid. You don't move on because as selfish as this is for you to say, there's no one else out there right now. You're settling for less because you don't know there's better, maybe that's it. You want him to take you in his arms all the time. You want him to not be able to get enough of you. Are these really that new of ages we're living in? Should the girl truly be doing the asking, the chasing, the pursuing. The boy playing hard to get, is that right? I think not. Is it just him or is he really the epitome of a 16 year old boy?
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BigDreamer- I found some of your comments interesting so I came to check out some of your articles. Funny thing about blogging is that even though people post things up for everyone else to see, sometimes you can still feel like, "hmm, is it okay to be reading this?" Anyway, though Im a guy (oh really? no!), I feel like I can relate to what it seems like you are going through. Did I play the part of the "epitome of a 16 year old boy" like you describe? Im ashamed to think of it, but I know I made some serious bad decisions, and for sure I had no backbone to be found. That time seems like ages ago, but was only several years. But I hope I have changed as much as I think I have. Today it isn't easy to find a loyal heart, or a person of uncompromising integrity. A person that says 'God's word is final authority in my life, that's it, period." But I'm not worried about you. The joy of the Lord is your strength, so you'll have the strength to do what is right, and what's pleasing to our Father. I expect much of you. By how many interests you have, I don't know how you have time to be thinking about guys so much :P When I was in relationships, whoa I hardly could tell you what year it was.. yeh. Not a sign of a positive, God centered relationship. Lotta confusion there. Anyway, my story doesn't belong you the comment of someone elses blog so, I look forward to seeing more of your insight and comments.
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I know what you mean about how some things seem so personal you wonder if you should be reading this... I'm just hoping none of my friends come to this site and find my name. I was thinking about it yesterday, how it is so personal.. but I figure "hey, these people don't know me personally". I know what you mean. Thanks for the comment; greatly appreciated! I know someday I'll find someone who's in it for true love, God's kind of love, not just lust, what our society today refers to as love. ~Peace