JamMeister33

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Hello, hello again.....

March 13, 2003 9:47 PM from

Okay, let me get this straight...
I have read all of the rules from A to Z and nowhere was I able to locate any reference to the fact that I am not allowed to voice my own opinion.
Evidently, unless I kiss everyone's "hiney" and am all lovey-dovey like certain other neurotic persons who will go unnamed, I will be penalized and/or ostracized from the community since I am not conforming to the general hypocritical mood....
I removed my wallpapers and such since they had obviously had run their course and were no longer of much interest to anyone..
I would think that the freed up space would be appreciated, but no, instead I am now a mere Citizen as though I never contributed a single thing to this site.
Have I left anything out?, are there any people who wish to burn me further?
Any real comments from anyone?, especially administrators, who have something more than vindictiveness to contribute?

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Reply #126 March 16, 2003 4:38 AM from

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None of that highly physically abusive playtime for me, I'm too old for that now.....

Reply #127 March 16, 2003 4:40 AM from

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I'm lucky really. I have transient baby brain strokes that have worsened since my youth. And I have a strong case of Manic-Depression. With record breaking spans of severe depersonalization. Two suicides in the family and an uncle that died in a state hospitol. To top that all off I have a charactor disorder, i am socio-pathic. I act sociolly responcible because I take pride in doing things the hard way. It is easy to be a cruel jerk. Yet with the coctail of meds to keep my strokes and MD under control I still have to double check myself constantly as someone making a rude comment to a lady can set me off a it feels like a free pass to be extreme=violent. Yep I am lucky I have met others in worse binds. As for chucks I have monocular vision and could only do it with my eyes closed. Lots of bruses. Age 38.

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Reply #128 March 16, 2003 4:46 AM from

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Hey wait a minute, you just copied all of that out of my profile didn't you?.......

Reply #129 March 16, 2003 4:47 AM from

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Oh those white diamonds once were stones......

Reply #130 March 16, 2003 4:47 AM from

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dang, you and I could be a football team

yes rage, anger, mean is easy... nice takes work sometimes. I am still learning how to really interact with people without meds and or ging to sessions and I step on my, big toes, yeah, yeah thats the ticket, my big toes all the time...

you know, I've read and heard people say that such things can not be real because they all started happening al at once over a twn year period begining in the 80's. I always respnded, no it isn't new, poeple just talk about it now.. because talking does help, and those who are not facing these things need to understand them if there is going to be any real hope in the future for many who do live moment to moment, day to day..

Reply #131 March 16, 2003 4:47 AM from

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I think I may of woke the neighbors laughing.

Reply #132 March 16, 2003 4:48 AM from

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Jam

BP has a large arm spread for sure

Reply #133 March 16, 2003 4:49 AM from

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I was laughing at the profile remark of course.

Reply #134 March 16, 2003 4:52 AM from

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Ya bipolars nothing new, heavy stress lifestyles can trigger the onset in some that never would. I know a 56 old that was studying for the bar exam and stayed up 2 days and & had a full blown manic episode and they never went away.

Reply #135 March 16, 2003 4:53 AM from

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know what though? it's kinda good to know this, because it means that there are some who will have a better chance of understanding some things if and when the time for understanding comes about...

I mean everyone here is great like that, but, it's easier sometimes when you do not have to draw a picture, and the other(s) your speaking with could complete your sentences for you/me/others because they live(d) it also...

I think that is one of the things that really caught my attention about Jafo, he is not an excuse maker and is not about to let anyone become one either, and yet he also looks at things from all perspectives and makes allowences where he finds them justifiable. i am sure everyone else is pretty much like thta, but have not had cause to notice it with anyone else before, yet..

Reply #136 March 16, 2003 4:55 AM from

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A lot of quacks out there. I find for psyc or med Advanced Registered Nurse Practitioners are far better than doctors, and only wemon ARNPs for me. Coleagial and nurturing. I fired 7 men docs in 6 months.

Reply #137 March 16, 2003 4:55 AM from

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the sad thing is, you never hear about the bipolar person who is a professional, a priest, politician, judge, doctor, professor, teacher, police, etc.. You only hear the horror stories of manic episodes gone extremely bad...

No wonder people seem like they would like to throw their fingers up in the form of a cross and his at you when you attempt to discuss it

media really sucks...

Reply #138 March 16, 2003 4:57 AM from

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Okay, Jane's Addiction.. "Up the Beach" followed by "Ocean Size"..
then we'll skip to "Standing in the Shower, Thinking"

Reply #139 March 16, 2003 4:58 AM from

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Support groups can be very useful for things like Bipolar, or depression etc. If your community is large enough to support one, the emergenct room staff of most hospitals know about such organizations, as they see people in crisis so much.

Reply #140 March 16, 2003 4:59 AM from

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losing the track about here...

Reply #141 March 16, 2003 5:00 AM from

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Yes, I agree.. Jafo is probably the only person I've ever known who never fails to have the right response to anything at all... doesn't matter what it is... must be all those walkabouts... hehe

Reply #142 March 16, 2003 5:00 AM from

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Lots of people loose their jobs if they come out my boss was thrilled because there was hope I would be less of a pain in the ass.

Ya jam the beach works wonders.

Reply #143 March 16, 2003 5:03 AM from

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Hey if you don't know about mental illness guy. Good for you. But you might read up some day because if you live long enough someone close due to mates or family will touch your lives. But hell everybodies got problems.

Reply #144 March 16, 2003 5:05 AM from

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Drop me a line some time IPlural so we don't bore the straights.
stephen_tacoma_wa@msn.com

Reply #145 March 16, 2003 5:12 AM from

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well, we really should leave off on getting to deep about it here... We all do attempt to keep topics along the lines of group use, besides jafo might whack me with his wooden bat/club thingy given half the chance

I am not allowed at support groups, rather nice of them... I do understand though, why that is. For the most part DID/MPD is mostly something women fae and it is almost always because of male influence which causes it. SO they claim it would be to much for a man to be in the group, odd duck out I guess. So I read and read and read... I know more about Bipolar, Borderline Personality Disorder, DID/MPD than I care to

Bipolar, did you know they think it is actually cause by genetics combined with some kind of trauma, be it emotional or psychical or the two combined, which triggers the chemical imbalance at the beginning. It can also happen at anytime in life...

Reply #146 March 16, 2003 5:14 AM from

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I wil do that, but, one can not hold anothers not having a dx up as a negative anymore than having them do the same in reverse...

Styl as with everyone on this site are extreamly good people and no one that I can think of would ever apply anything negative upon someone who happens to have a dx just because of that...

Reply #147 March 16, 2003 5:18 AM from

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damn my head and eyes hurt...

Reply #148 March 16, 2003 5:20 AM from

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Yep. Both my parents were bipolar. But for the most part it starts creeping in in the teens and gets worse as we age until medically stabilized. Most hate the meds though because they can take away all the highs but not the lows. And flat feels rather low. Well bud I'm off to bed. I sure do appreciate the help with the refresh, the screen definatly is notibly better. If you ever feel like your about to pull your hair out or tired of biting your tounge or stomping on your own toe feel free to drop me a line. If I'm too sick to respond I just wont. Usually I'm just fine I will leave with a quote from my favorite author Jim Thompson "Well hell buddy thats as easy as nailing your dick to a tree stump and falling off backward...." Night all.

Reply #149 March 16, 2003 5:27 AM from

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nighters

and will take you up on the offer in time I am sure...
I've been stuck on my own with it all for a bit now and it is showing and has been, here on this site and on another which I avoid because of it.

night!

Reply #150 March 16, 2003 6:39 AM from

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IP+ I was losing the track because of my poor english. A good friend of mine suffer on a 'mental illnes'.
I'm not sure what's the name for it in english, he has good and bad times, but it's strange seeing people change in that way. He always was tuff and 'hard' but than the other day he was afraid of seeing his hands, and picking things up, he walked around with his hands into his sweater. After some time it went better, and he was going onto the street again cycling. He almost got an accident with a car, and it scared the crap out of him. All the hard work of making him feel better was wasted.

like some say, god has a sick sence of humor.

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