The first day of the new year
not much changed
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I had a really good time last night. I spent my new years with lizzy.. It was defintely a good time. I didnt drink though and that is odd, but I guess I just didnt feel very up to it. So the clock changed and the new years began, and I hope its better than the last. Well so far nothing much else about my life has changed.
Oh yeah, and I want to give a heads up to people that lie straight to other peoples' faces. That is so cool. I wish I could do it. Riiiiighhht. In this past year, so much has happened in my life. Mostly none of which i consider good, besides my friends. The guys I have met. Lemme see here... yep I would have to go with lying and cheating. They definetly all seemed to be pretty good at that. Do i seem bitter? Well I guess I am. I mean time after time I trust people, and at this point, I am really not sure why. Are people so demanding that they need to lie to get more of what they think they need. Is attention that important for everyone? I guess it matters to some more than others. I don't want people to fight about me, or even deny that they know me for sake that they have someone else and were not honest with me to begin with. For whatever reason I have to let things go in my past, and realize that I haven't truly met these boys at all. Because these boys were not who they said they were, and these boys were a mere distorted image of something I thought I wanted in my life. I also believe that I have been lying to myself. I definetly choose guys that are entirely out of my league. I am not that attractive nor do I have much positive imput about guys that I have dated. I guess when I start looking for the right guy for the right reasons; he will in return be right. So where do I begin. I just made the mile walk I called my life a marathon. For my new years resolution I have decided to change something, my outlook on life. Although at one point I thought of my future as bright, I am now strung in the middle of a path with two dark roads that lie ahead of me. Life is full of questions. Am I ready to grow up?
Oh yeah, and I want to give a heads up to people that lie straight to other peoples' faces. That is so cool. I wish I could do it. Riiiiighhht. In this past year, so much has happened in my life. Mostly none of which i consider good, besides my friends. The guys I have met. Lemme see here... yep I would have to go with lying and cheating. They definetly all seemed to be pretty good at that. Do i seem bitter? Well I guess I am. I mean time after time I trust people, and at this point, I am really not sure why. Are people so demanding that they need to lie to get more of what they think they need. Is attention that important for everyone? I guess it matters to some more than others. I don't want people to fight about me, or even deny that they know me for sake that they have someone else and were not honest with me to begin with. For whatever reason I have to let things go in my past, and realize that I haven't truly met these boys at all. Because these boys were not who they said they were, and these boys were a mere distorted image of something I thought I wanted in my life. I also believe that I have been lying to myself. I definetly choose guys that are entirely out of my league. I am not that attractive nor do I have much positive imput about guys that I have dated. I guess when I start looking for the right guy for the right reasons; he will in return be right. So where do I begin. I just made the mile walk I called my life a marathon. For my new years resolution I have decided to change something, my outlook on life. Although at one point I thought of my future as bright, I am now strung in the middle of a path with two dark roads that lie ahead of me. Life is full of questions. Am I ready to grow up?
