“You can hardly blame ‘em. I mean, hell, would you be out driving a frickin’ bus in this sorta weather. I don’t think so… But they’re paid to do the job and they’ve got frickin’ heaters blowin’ on their feet. Meanwhile, a man could freeze ta death waitin’ for ‘em. I mean, jeezus frickin’ capital ‘C’ Christ…” He let the last word drift away as something behind me captured his interest. I jumped at the break in his monologue.
“Would you mind if I took your photo?”
His eyes snapped back to mine. “What in hell for?”
“Well, I think this would make a good photo. Don’t worry, I’ll give you a copy, if you like it. And it is not going to be published. Not without your permission, anyway.”
“Damn right it won’t be published. I don’t want every bastard looking at me. There are frickin’ weirdos everywhere, ya know. They see a photo of me and you never know what they might do with it. Frickin’ weirdos…” He looked away over my shoulder again.
“I don’t think you’ve got anything to worry about…” I started to reply but he looked at me like I’d slapped him.
“What the hell do you mean by that? You don’t think I’m good enough for weirdos to look at, huh? Well, you know what you can do with your frickin’ camera, don’t you.” He slapped his hands together and glared at me, daring me to challenge him.
I shook my head and said “I didn’t mean it at all like that. I just don’t think anyone much will be looking at the photo, except whoever you choose to show it to…” I smiled a small apologetic smile at him. The glare diminished a little.
“Well, alright then, but you better take it quick. I can see the bus coming.”
I unsnapped the lens cap from my camera. I looked through it and focussed. “Are you ready? Okay, three, two, one…” The camera clicked. “Aw, come on Dad, could you at least give me a smile.”
“What the hell do I gotta smile for, huh? I don’t have anything to frickin’ smile about, so why frickin’ should I?”
I shook my head at his typical negativity. The bus pulled up next to us. “Okay, Dad, well give my love to Mum and I’ll see you next week for Christmas, okay?” I gave him a quick hug and squeezed a little. He didn’t say a word back. He just got on the bus and shuffled down the aisle to a free seat. I stood and watched as the bus pulled away. I waved goodbye but he wasn’t even looking. I smiled a little to myself and thanked who or whatever that I had my mother’s temperament.